I distorted my own perception until my thoughts created a living hell. I made a world where I was unloved, unwanted, unappreciated by everyone including my own blood. Stepping back into reality, I realized this could not be further from the truth. I was mind boggled, how could one person make me feel this desolate? *ding ding ding* my aha moment: it was more than a single person. I recognized the people who I mistook as friends did not have my best interest at heart, they were only fascinated with making themselves feel better. My limitless potential was then limited to my “friends” saying: “maybe you should give up.” Maybe I shouldn’t.
After making the decision to liberate myself from the people I thought I needed, each day I felt a little bit stronger. At my new job I formed new friendships and bonds that helped me grow and feel so much stronger. This incredible job and my new adopted family reached the depths of my soul and I felt beautiful again. Of course it wasn’t all butterflies and rainbows, but for the most part my new crowd was a bunch that had each other’s backs and reminded you that you are beautiful, a lot.
This was an eyeopener and I realized every once in a while you need to take a good, hard look at the people you spend most of your time with. Are they encouraging you to be better? Do they express their belief in you? Are they positive influences in your life? If not, maybe you should reconsider who you call a “friend”.